2 Steps Forward and 3 Steps back…sigh

So the question is…”How has “Unglued” changed your life?” and “How are you applying it to your life?”.

Well, I am much more aware of the feelings and emotions building and because of what I’ve been learning through the book and OBS starting to get a better handle on things.  Physical challenges are making things harder though.  First I have ADD and secondly I suffer from chronic and debilitating back pain which affects my body in many different ways.  When I’m with people I put on my I feel fine smiley face and sometimes it does help being with others because it takes my mind off of the pain for a while.  Anyway, all those things tend to contribute to my becoming “unglued!”  However, I am trying to learn how to take a step back and stop, maybe even walk away before I totally blow it again.  Right now this is fairly easy since my son has moved out and it is just me and my cat.   It’s harder with my dad however when I’m with my dad I am a true stuffer or maybe I should say “the silent martyr”.  He is 81 and has so many medical issues that I don’t want to hurt him because there are certain things he does that drive me crazy.  That’s my problem not his, but then how do I work my way through this without stuffing and making myself miserable?  I keep telling myself that someday when he is no longer here I will long for those things that bug me now and I really do know that so I tolerate and stuff.  Ya know, 2 steps forward and 3 steps back.  I know Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.  So I keep plugging away, praise God I’m too stubborn to totally give up. 

Oh by the way, I’m not even on the right chapter.  I think i’m still on chapter 6, I have the book on my kindle and it is too hard to go back and forth.  I seem to only be able to handle one chapter a week but I’ll get there eventually.

I’m am for sure “a work in imperfect progress!” Image

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8 thoughts on “2 Steps Forward and 3 Steps back…sigh

  1. Thanks for sharing. I too have a dad who is 85 & he still can tear down all the progress that has been made in my life faster than a sonic boom.
    Thank God for imperfect progress.
    M. Waters

    • Hi hugapoohlouise! Thank you for your encouragement and understanding. God could not have given me a better dad i owe him so much and he helps me so much that’s why it is so hard when he drives me crazy and well you know. Hugs and prayers for the tolerance we need to deal with our aging parents. Have a great day!

  2. Oh, I can relate to so much of what you shared! From the ADD to the aggravating Dad who I miss terribly since he passed, to the wonderful companionship of your cat (my dogs), to putting on a smiley face when you connect with folks who take your mind off the struggles in life. I don’t think it matters that you’re only on Ch. 6; you are internalizing the message of Unglued! Thank you for the honest sharing of yourself on this blog. I hope you keep writing!
    Blessings to you, girl!
    Karen,
    OBS Small Group Leader

    • Thank you Karen for your encouragement. I am so thankful that Melissa started this Thursday blog hop. I’ve always wanted to do a blog just couldn’t seem to get it going and the blog hop and the Unglued study have kinda kicked me into gear. You would think that as a writer i would be good at journaling – not. It seems i have a really hard time at understanding and figuring out what is going on inside me. Unglued is helping so much! God bless and have a great day in the Lord!

  3. Your love is kind. Recently confronted my stuffing. Jesus is showing me its related to the Adult Children of Alcoholics stuff. I’m using many things to explore this–Al-Anon a little with step 3. Celebrate Recovery – all, And the Holy Spirit is helping me to see when I do it. I have been blind to how much I stuff.
    Am praying for your back pain. My recently-passed husband had chronic back pain so I’ll replace my prayers for him with your pain. It would be my privilege. I have 2 cats. They’re my dearest friends, next to Jesus. Many blessings upon you, dear friend. In Jesus love, my best for you always.

    • Hi Lucy, thank you so much for sharing with me. I will pray for you as you work on your stuffing it sounds like you are making progress. I am so sorry for your loss of your husband i just don’t know what we would do without Jesus and His love and hope. He is the only one who promises us that hope. I really believe God gave us our precious furry friends because He knew how comforting they would be for us. Thank you so much for your prayers concerning my back they are so much appreciated. Hugs to you sweet lady and God bless as you and i and all the others continue to work on our imperfect progress.

  4. Thanks so much for taking the time to post on our blog hop.
    Don’t worry about what Chapter you’re up to – the most important thing is that you’re doing the study! And it sounds like you’re learning some great things along the way.
    By the way, I love your picture of Max – what a cutey!
    God bless
    Love
    Nicki (OBS Leader)

    • Thank you Nicki for the encouragement. I think having the book only on my kindle slows me down somewhat because it is a lot harder to go back to something on there than it is in a regular hard copy. I will keep plugging away!

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